One Fish Two Fish

Dear Father I may not know you but I have a piece of you. There's this memory in my mind, age three walking down to the lake holding your warm hand in the summer breeze I have my blue and white mickey and friends fishing pole. Donald Duck being my favorite. Out goes the line I didn't get a bite but you did. Out goes the line your on a roll Your words of encouragement help me swing out that line and just like that I caught a little fish. Full of joy and smiles we threw it back. Walking home with smiles, laughs and fish. As I talk to Gram about our trip your in the kitchen cleaning the fish I come to watch saying that's gross and ran out then the alarm goes off smoke coming out to the living room Gram yelling "Jim you OK" you coming to the door "I got it under control" we laugh I don't remember ever eating that fish but I remember getting it. You left me or maybe I left you but i'll always have that moment Thanks always Tria

My Love

Dear my love
Floating away with the wind
You will always be in my heart, my soul, my body
I will never forget that laugh, that smile, that voice
All those memories you burn into my mind
The good, the bad, the beautiful
The way you walk into the room and all eyes are on you
The way you put your head down and you eyes shift up
 The warm touch, soft kiss, big hug
Just laying next to you looking at the ceiling pointing out fake stars
Knowing that you were all mines and no one else's
Sharing our dreams of make believe
To be able to wake up from a bad dream
And your there with a kiss, a smile, a hug, a laugh
Laying on your chest listening to your heart beat
Now I lay in your spot
To feel you smell you, to dream with you
Looking up at the ceiling knowing your among the real stars
So I lay here crying, smiling, laughing
Unsure of what to do, what to think, what to feel
So I lay here hoping that one day you will find your way back here

Animal

I've falling
falling right into your path
I tried to go another way but you kept following
I scream but no one here's
I run but your like a fox

So here I stand

In your path

You walk slowly towards me with this smile of hope
Before I could do anything I attack
I come from all angles
I leave your there on your path
Broken Confused Hurt
As I walk away your heart still beats in my hands

For the Girl

There she sits unharm, untouch
As she sits she thinks
As she thinks she be

As she be she becomes

As she becomes she dreams

As she dreams she lives

As she lives she is

As she is the girl

Full of life with nothing in her way

She never let her unwanting pain take over who she is or will be

She never let her unwanted pain become something more then it is unwanting

She drive herself to the finish line without a word of defeat
She has a smile a laugh a hug that will make you feel if you never felt before

She has the streaght of ten men and one women

She had a gift only she knows but everyone sees
She is the girl we all want to be

Darken Sky

For so long I wanted to be someone
For so long I wanted to belong
For so long I wanted to be needed
For so long I wanted to be wanted
What I didn't know is with that comes pain, sorrow, heartache
What I didn't know is with that you get greed, upsets, nothing
What I didn't know is with that you end up more alone then you started
In this moment I don't know what I'm going to do

In this moment I don't know how I will end up
In this moment I don't know what will happen
 But who really does

Living Plastic

We stand there plastic
The real barbie and Ken
The only difference is we don't live dream house, drive that hot pink car
And at our disposal we cant become whatever we want to

Instead I traded it all in for a hell house

My dreams came crashing down at the raise of your hand

My hot pink car turn into me walking

Because you didn't feel like picking me up

My clothes became torn, burn, stain from your angry rants

We become plastic in front of every
I cover the pain so well I believe myself
I try to run
You follow
I hide
You seek
I scream
You cover me
The only way out is death
Rather it's you or me

Mirror

I'm floating into a place of make believe

I don't know if I want to leave

I'm finding all the wrong places

Stepping on every crack

Breaking every rule

Losing all control
Then I saw you
Standing from afar in a darken corner
I begin to walk over
As I get closer
Its me
Broken beaten down
For I did all the things Ive shouldn't have
Now I'm worn old hiding
For I'm ashamed of what I became
I turn and run without a look back
Is there still hope?
Can I be saved?
Whats left of me?
I fall down and cry

For the mirror never lies