Whole Again

 I drift through like a piece of paper running in the wind
Like a mouse under a door or a bird flying high
I stand in the background like the trees, rocks, houses that seem to never get out the way
Like a gate standing between the good, the bad and the ugly
I'm the line between the sand that meets the sea
The forgotten picture of childhood memories
I'm standing alone like a tire swing longing for a push a touch of human life

All to be made whole again

Hold My Heart

My heart beats faster than it ever did before and just when I think its about to slow down you go and kiss me. I feel as if I'm ten feet high o I'm I high. U bring joy, passion, happiness, pure thoughts. I see myself with you for forever. I don't want I don't yarn for anyone else but you.

To My Mum

The cheeks you pass down to me
The knowledge of life you left me
The moments you gave me
The time you spend with me
The broken actions you glue back together
The warmth you cover me with
The many movies you introduce me to
The food you prepare
The Morin cups of coffee
The Sunday paper
The pictures I have
The belly rubs
The hugs and kisses
The text you send me every night before you go to sleep
The I Love Yous
Thanks for everything

Fallling Tears

It's time to say goodbye but I don't want to yet
As I look into their eyes I know I must stay but I have to go
The minutes, hours, days, weeks, are now at a end are time is up
Waking up to those sweet kisses, warm hugs
To the  little feet running on the floor
The  little laughter's that fills the air
Those sweet little moments of questions
The late night t.v.
Morin belly rubs over coffee
As I stand at that door and the eyes begin to fill with tears I laugh to keep from crying
I sit in the car looking out the window hoping they would come
I make my way to the bus my seat and there it goes
As the bus leave my tears do the same

They fall all over me the seat and all I can do is look out the window hoping they will come 

Who's Gonna Save My Soul

My heart is fresh
Fresh out of my body
I cut it out with this fork
I lay it here on this table
Hoping you would see what I have done
I'm giving it to you before you break it into a million pieces
As you hold it
it still beats with a purpose
For loving you
I'm giving it to you for no one could ever fill your place
Everyone I will ever love will reflect you in some way
From the way you talk, dress, do your hair they will be you
So I leave my heart for you
Thanks and goodbye

On the Road Again

Its 9:25 and were in the greyhound station in Chicago,IL. Let me start off from the beginning , so my boyfriend and I are going to Marietta, Ga to visit my family. So it's 9:25 in the Chicago greyhound and we go and check in our bags. As we make our way to our line we were scared that the longest might be ours but we luck out and our line was only halfway full. Our bus didn't come until 10:40 so we just people watch and boy were there people to watch. All of the kids were the cutest little things, laughing, running, smiling, but the guy who was a professional recorder player was the best. So I'm listening to him talk about this and something caught my ear "bad romance"? His most requested song is bad romance by Lady Gaga and he started playing it all while wearing uggs, and let me just tell you it didn't sound like it at all not even a little. And then a bus rolled up one line jump up since they been there for a very long time and to my surprise it was our bus yay it was 10:30 and the bus is early this is going to be a great bus ride. So we get on take our sits and then I realize we got some talkers. In front of us we have a girl texting and talking to a guy who she just meet  and just so happen that they knew some of the same people back in Tennessee. On the side of us were a hippie talking about different teas that can get you high and many other drugs and be hide  him were two people who were just talking loudly and of course the back of the bus was live with a drunk man and were off.  To let you guys know this is a 18 hour bus ride. First stop Indianapolis and the only thing there is the Colts stadium which just so happen to be across from the greyhound station. Now were off to Louisville, KY and its like 5 in the moring and its still dark but downtown Louisville is beautiful. And the best part was going past the Yum stadium where the University of Louisville play basketball and the kids wear KFC buckets on their heads. Gotta love the south! So were sitting on the bus waiting to leave to head off to Nashville and there was this sound like someone was choking,i wish it was choking but no it was the drunk guy throwing up right be hide my boyfriend and me. We had our bags under the sit and everything. We hurry up and grab our bags and my boyfriend went and got the bus driver and someone can on and clean it up. I was so scared that I would wake up and throw would be on me. Lets just have a nice quiet clean ride to Nashville please.  Now that we are here in Nashville we get a hour break, its moring maybe ten and the station is pack with people from all over there very few places to sit but somehow we found some spots. I hate using public bathrooms. There never clean, not enough tissues or paper towels, and of course there's always and it wouldn't be a women's bathroom without a Line. (I scream that in my head when I first walk in) So I go in and as I thought everything was just how it always is a mess. I make my way back out to my boyfriend who manges to save my sit and we just sit there not doing anything but looking around. There's people chargeing their phones, kids crying, just people looking tired and then i spot something that should never be done i purple weave and that's when i knew we were somewhere far from home. Our number was call and were back on the bus heading to Manchester,TN.  So we made it to Manchester and the first thing that caught my eye was this purple little restaurant name "Two Purple Pigs" and I wanted to go. This stop was only ten minutes  to get out and stretch your legs and have a smoke, well I guess this couple didn't get the memo and almost got left be hide. I should back up and tell you that the bus driver told us before we get off that if your not back, you steal, or buy alcohol you will become a member of Manchester,TN. The population has to be a total of 200 people. Well we started to pull off without the couple and someone from the back of the bus yells "we still have two people in the gas station" the bus driver responds "there now members of Manchester, TN". As soon as he said that the guy comes running up look in the bus saw that his wife wasn't on the bus  and ran back and got her. All i could think was if he was able to turn right out and didn't have to wait for cars they would have became members of Manchester,TN. They found their sits and we make our way to Marietta,GA. We get off the bus and right as we get off is my niece and my sister , smiling waiting to give us hugs. And that was the best feeling in the world knowing that they were there waiting for us and I'm glad that we took that 18hour drive.

Tea for Two or Two for Tea

Walking down the midnight ave the warm summer breeze something caught my eye. It was the a couple not just any old couple the "tea couple", young, hot, mature. As I watch them engaged into each other laughing, smiling, the simple little touches that sends the sparks into each other eyes. I begin to dream of that wanting to feel free without care in the world to feel as if I was floating on air. Coming back to earth I realize that they were walking down the street in front of me so i began following. As they hold hands in the sweetest little way I begin to image again gliding down the golden streets with prince charming oh how sweet it sounds. Coming back i realize I had follow them home. As they went into the building I follow them as if I knew someone that live there. They go into their home and I begin to dream about how it would be. Sitting on the couch cuddling into each other arms, watching a movie, drinking tea, he's reading, she's laying on his chest. But then I heard screaming and yelling coming from inside. Being push out of the way she comes running out he's looking at me with no shirt on "what do you want" he yelled at me 'nothing" I said scared running down the stairs. This was coming from the man who touches are so sweet and soft whose kisses are full of sweetness. I ran after her asking "why, i see you everyday ever so happy drinking your tea, the way he touches you, hold your hand, they way you laugh and smile, why" she looks up from the ground. Look me straight in the eyes and told me " those touches you see hurt" she showed me her are and there were those marks. she finish "when he touch or hold my hands that's my only true feeling of love, when he looks me into the eyes while we drink tea is the best part of my day" She begin to cry again. I just held her. He came back out begging her to come back in and that he was sorry. She got up and he grab her hands. She look back and said "the hands that hurt can also love" And they went back into the building. As I walk home  I could only think what we see on the outside may not be whats on the inside. Every time I walk past that little cafe I hope i get to see her just one more time but it never happens. I don't know where she could be or if she found another place but I hope she found Love.