One Fish Two Fish

Dear Father I may not know you but I have a piece of you. There's this memory in my mind, age three walking down to the lake holding your warm hand in the summer breeze I have my blue and white mickey and friends fishing pole. Donald Duck being my favorite. Out goes the line I didn't get a bite but you did. Out goes the line your on a roll Your words of encouragement help me swing out that line and just like that I caught a little fish. Full of joy and smiles we threw it back. Walking home with smiles, laughs and fish. As I talk to Gram about our trip your in the kitchen cleaning the fish I come to watch saying that's gross and ran out then the alarm goes off smoke coming out to the living room Gram yelling "Jim you OK" you coming to the door "I got it under control" we laugh I don't remember ever eating that fish but I remember getting it. You left me or maybe I left you but i'll always have that moment Thanks always Tria

My Love

Dear my love
Floating away with the wind
You will always be in my heart, my soul, my body
I will never forget that laugh, that smile, that voice
All those memories you burn into my mind
The good, the bad, the beautiful
The way you walk into the room and all eyes are on you
The way you put your head down and you eyes shift up
 The warm touch, soft kiss, big hug
Just laying next to you looking at the ceiling pointing out fake stars
Knowing that you were all mines and no one else's
Sharing our dreams of make believe
To be able to wake up from a bad dream
And your there with a kiss, a smile, a hug, a laugh
Laying on your chest listening to your heart beat
Now I lay in your spot
To feel you smell you, to dream with you
Looking up at the ceiling knowing your among the real stars
So I lay here crying, smiling, laughing
Unsure of what to do, what to think, what to feel
So I lay here hoping that one day you will find your way back here

Animal

I've falling
falling right into your path
I tried to go another way but you kept following
I scream but no one here's
I run but your like a fox

So here I stand

In your path

You walk slowly towards me with this smile of hope
Before I could do anything I attack
I come from all angles
I leave your there on your path
Broken Confused Hurt
As I walk away your heart still beats in my hands

For the Girl

There she sits unharm, untouch
As she sits she thinks
As she thinks she be

As she be she becomes

As she becomes she dreams

As she dreams she lives

As she lives she is

As she is the girl

Full of life with nothing in her way

She never let her unwanting pain take over who she is or will be

She never let her unwanted pain become something more then it is unwanting

She drive herself to the finish line without a word of defeat
She has a smile a laugh a hug that will make you feel if you never felt before

She has the streaght of ten men and one women

She had a gift only she knows but everyone sees
She is the girl we all want to be

Darken Sky

For so long I wanted to be someone
For so long I wanted to belong
For so long I wanted to be needed
For so long I wanted to be wanted
What I didn't know is with that comes pain, sorrow, heartache
What I didn't know is with that you get greed, upsets, nothing
What I didn't know is with that you end up more alone then you started
In this moment I don't know what I'm going to do

In this moment I don't know how I will end up
In this moment I don't know what will happen
 But who really does

Living Plastic

We stand there plastic
The real barbie and Ken
The only difference is we don't live dream house, drive that hot pink car
And at our disposal we cant become whatever we want to

Instead I traded it all in for a hell house

My dreams came crashing down at the raise of your hand

My hot pink car turn into me walking

Because you didn't feel like picking me up

My clothes became torn, burn, stain from your angry rants

We become plastic in front of every
I cover the pain so well I believe myself
I try to run
You follow
I hide
You seek
I scream
You cover me
The only way out is death
Rather it's you or me

Mirror

I'm floating into a place of make believe

I don't know if I want to leave

I'm finding all the wrong places

Stepping on every crack

Breaking every rule

Losing all control
Then I saw you
Standing from afar in a darken corner
I begin to walk over
As I get closer
Its me
Broken beaten down
For I did all the things Ive shouldn't have
Now I'm worn old hiding
For I'm ashamed of what I became
I turn and run without a look back
Is there still hope?
Can I be saved?
Whats left of me?
I fall down and cry

For the mirror never lies

Im Entitle to Burn your Shit

It's been years, months, days, hours, even minutes since we broken up but yet I'm still bitter

Although I have moved on
I still like running back into your name bashing you like a baseball across the field
Oh how you suck the life out of me
Had me in a state of blindness
Yes I must admit the first few months even the first year was great
But all those days and nights turn into you yelling  and screaming about mostly nothing
Ugh I cant even hear myself think
And when I can I'm thinking about punching you in the face
But I refrain from doing so for the umpteen time
Even dinner with you is insane

I'm beginning to lose my mind

Then I get a kick in the ass and it's over

Now I'm sitting around a fire

Torching your name, your soul, and most of all your shit
Ha Ha

And to all a pleasant night

Drops of Jupiter

You been there like the wind blowing on my back on a hot summer day
You whisper sweet nothings into my ear as I lay on the sun bleach grass
You warm me with your smile like the sun on the eve of noon
We jump, swim, laugh, sleep, breath
Even when your gone your here

With a touch of your hand across my cheek
The sweetness of your kiss
All remain here with me
As I look out to the waters my heart skip a few beats
I become paralyze with emotions
For this where you died
I keep coming to this spot in hopes you will come back
I just one more hug, kiss, laugh, swim, but all I can do is breath

Falling In

Here I stand

I can feel the rocks, dirt,tears under my feet

As I look across I see pain, hardship, nothingness
One two three
Here I fall
As I fall  I breath, feel, cry
Flashes of life before my eyes
Of us
One two three
Here I lay
Broken, forgotten,unloved
Moss grows upon me
Bugs crawl around me
because they know the truth  
Here I lay
There you stand
Here I lay
There you cry
Here I feel your single tear
There you go
Here I vanish

My Heart

My heart drop as I saw you enter that door

It crash to the floor shattering into million of pieces

I tried to hurry and pick it up but you rush over and swept it into a jar

You ran out of the room as I lay on the floor unable to get up

I began to cry just thinking of you and my stolen heart

I know days,months, years from now

You will still hold me

Whole Again

 I drift through like a piece of paper running in the wind
Like a mouse under a door or a bird flying high
I stand in the background like the trees, rocks, houses that seem to never get out the way
Like a gate standing between the good, the bad and the ugly
I'm the line between the sand that meets the sea
The forgotten picture of childhood memories
I'm standing alone like a tire swing longing for a push a touch of human life

All to be made whole again

Hold My Heart

My heart beats faster than it ever did before and just when I think its about to slow down you go and kiss me. I feel as if I'm ten feet high o I'm I high. U bring joy, passion, happiness, pure thoughts. I see myself with you for forever. I don't want I don't yarn for anyone else but you.

To My Mum

The cheeks you pass down to me
The knowledge of life you left me
The moments you gave me
The time you spend with me
The broken actions you glue back together
The warmth you cover me with
The many movies you introduce me to
The food you prepare
The Morin cups of coffee
The Sunday paper
The pictures I have
The belly rubs
The hugs and kisses
The text you send me every night before you go to sleep
The I Love Yous
Thanks for everything

Fallling Tears

It's time to say goodbye but I don't want to yet
As I look into their eyes I know I must stay but I have to go
The minutes, hours, days, weeks, are now at a end are time is up
Waking up to those sweet kisses, warm hugs
To the  little feet running on the floor
The  little laughter's that fills the air
Those sweet little moments of questions
The late night t.v.
Morin belly rubs over coffee
As I stand at that door and the eyes begin to fill with tears I laugh to keep from crying
I sit in the car looking out the window hoping they would come
I make my way to the bus my seat and there it goes
As the bus leave my tears do the same

They fall all over me the seat and all I can do is look out the window hoping they will come 

Who's Gonna Save My Soul

My heart is fresh
Fresh out of my body
I cut it out with this fork
I lay it here on this table
Hoping you would see what I have done
I'm giving it to you before you break it into a million pieces
As you hold it
it still beats with a purpose
For loving you
I'm giving it to you for no one could ever fill your place
Everyone I will ever love will reflect you in some way
From the way you talk, dress, do your hair they will be you
So I leave my heart for you
Thanks and goodbye

On the Road Again

Its 9:25 and were in the greyhound station in Chicago,IL. Let me start off from the beginning , so my boyfriend and I are going to Marietta, Ga to visit my family. So it's 9:25 in the Chicago greyhound and we go and check in our bags. As we make our way to our line we were scared that the longest might be ours but we luck out and our line was only halfway full. Our bus didn't come until 10:40 so we just people watch and boy were there people to watch. All of the kids were the cutest little things, laughing, running, smiling, but the guy who was a professional recorder player was the best. So I'm listening to him talk about this and something caught my ear "bad romance"? His most requested song is bad romance by Lady Gaga and he started playing it all while wearing uggs, and let me just tell you it didn't sound like it at all not even a little. And then a bus rolled up one line jump up since they been there for a very long time and to my surprise it was our bus yay it was 10:30 and the bus is early this is going to be a great bus ride. So we get on take our sits and then I realize we got some talkers. In front of us we have a girl texting and talking to a guy who she just meet  and just so happen that they knew some of the same people back in Tennessee. On the side of us were a hippie talking about different teas that can get you high and many other drugs and be hide  him were two people who were just talking loudly and of course the back of the bus was live with a drunk man and were off.  To let you guys know this is a 18 hour bus ride. First stop Indianapolis and the only thing there is the Colts stadium which just so happen to be across from the greyhound station. Now were off to Louisville, KY and its like 5 in the moring and its still dark but downtown Louisville is beautiful. And the best part was going past the Yum stadium where the University of Louisville play basketball and the kids wear KFC buckets on their heads. Gotta love the south! So were sitting on the bus waiting to leave to head off to Nashville and there was this sound like someone was choking,i wish it was choking but no it was the drunk guy throwing up right be hide my boyfriend and me. We had our bags under the sit and everything. We hurry up and grab our bags and my boyfriend went and got the bus driver and someone can on and clean it up. I was so scared that I would wake up and throw would be on me. Lets just have a nice quiet clean ride to Nashville please.  Now that we are here in Nashville we get a hour break, its moring maybe ten and the station is pack with people from all over there very few places to sit but somehow we found some spots. I hate using public bathrooms. There never clean, not enough tissues or paper towels, and of course there's always and it wouldn't be a women's bathroom without a Line. (I scream that in my head when I first walk in) So I go in and as I thought everything was just how it always is a mess. I make my way back out to my boyfriend who manges to save my sit and we just sit there not doing anything but looking around. There's people chargeing their phones, kids crying, just people looking tired and then i spot something that should never be done i purple weave and that's when i knew we were somewhere far from home. Our number was call and were back on the bus heading to Manchester,TN.  So we made it to Manchester and the first thing that caught my eye was this purple little restaurant name "Two Purple Pigs" and I wanted to go. This stop was only ten minutes  to get out and stretch your legs and have a smoke, well I guess this couple didn't get the memo and almost got left be hide. I should back up and tell you that the bus driver told us before we get off that if your not back, you steal, or buy alcohol you will become a member of Manchester,TN. The population has to be a total of 200 people. Well we started to pull off without the couple and someone from the back of the bus yells "we still have two people in the gas station" the bus driver responds "there now members of Manchester, TN". As soon as he said that the guy comes running up look in the bus saw that his wife wasn't on the bus  and ran back and got her. All i could think was if he was able to turn right out and didn't have to wait for cars they would have became members of Manchester,TN. They found their sits and we make our way to Marietta,GA. We get off the bus and right as we get off is my niece and my sister , smiling waiting to give us hugs. And that was the best feeling in the world knowing that they were there waiting for us and I'm glad that we took that 18hour drive.

Tea for Two or Two for Tea

Walking down the midnight ave the warm summer breeze something caught my eye. It was the a couple not just any old couple the "tea couple", young, hot, mature. As I watch them engaged into each other laughing, smiling, the simple little touches that sends the sparks into each other eyes. I begin to dream of that wanting to feel free without care in the world to feel as if I was floating on air. Coming back to earth I realize that they were walking down the street in front of me so i began following. As they hold hands in the sweetest little way I begin to image again gliding down the golden streets with prince charming oh how sweet it sounds. Coming back i realize I had follow them home. As they went into the building I follow them as if I knew someone that live there. They go into their home and I begin to dream about how it would be. Sitting on the couch cuddling into each other arms, watching a movie, drinking tea, he's reading, she's laying on his chest. But then I heard screaming and yelling coming from inside. Being push out of the way she comes running out he's looking at me with no shirt on "what do you want" he yelled at me 'nothing" I said scared running down the stairs. This was coming from the man who touches are so sweet and soft whose kisses are full of sweetness. I ran after her asking "why, i see you everyday ever so happy drinking your tea, the way he touches you, hold your hand, they way you laugh and smile, why" she looks up from the ground. Look me straight in the eyes and told me " those touches you see hurt" she showed me her are and there were those marks. she finish "when he touch or hold my hands that's my only true feeling of love, when he looks me into the eyes while we drink tea is the best part of my day" She begin to cry again. I just held her. He came back out begging her to come back in and that he was sorry. She got up and he grab her hands. She look back and said "the hands that hurt can also love" And they went back into the building. As I walk home  I could only think what we see on the outside may not be whats on the inside. Every time I walk past that little cafe I hope i get to see her just one more time but it never happens. I don't know where she could be or if she found another place but I hope she found Love.